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Just to keep it short and simple, I like you.
If you ever read this, just give me a sign of how you feel about this and I'll give you an explanation for everything. I've always thought about telling you in person, but I'm scared. Truly scared. These feelings are strong. So strong I can't even explain it just by typing. I know right now I'm nothing to you. I'm not even up there with the guys you check out or always talk about. But to me, you're more than everything. I already know I'm not much, I know. But damn, this feeling you always give me when I see you or when we interact, I never want it to stop. I don't wanna ruin our best friendship or anything, I wanna take it further. I know it's worth it. All I need is you. I love you with all my heart.

So many changes.

Big dreamin'

Just like most days of my summer, I stayed home. Really wanted to go to Milpitas session to get some practice before another jam. One thing I've been thinking most about is B-boying. That's all I wanna do right now. Sucks I have no space in my house. I found random spots in my house to throw in a few freezes and footwork HAHA. Other than that, I spend time on the laptop or play my guitar. I'm starting to play guitar everyday now. I feel like I'm getting way better. Thanks Gio for the motivation. Miss ya buhhd.

Say it ain't so...

Yesterday was my birthday. I have to say it was the best birthday I've EVER had. So many things went right on my birthday. It was unforgettable. In the morning, I woke up to my mom saying we need to get ready before she gets back from getting her oil change. I was so hyped up for today. Gio and I woke up at the same time. We all get ready and Tang finally joins us at my mom's apartment. We all chilled in our room for a while. A few minutes later my dad comes to the apartment with Mani. We were all ready and set out to Golfland! =D The first thing we did at Golfland was play mini-golf of course. It was Tang's first time and I gotta admit he wasn't bad at all haha. He got his 1st hole in one that day =D. We had so many laughs playing golf. Once we were done, we played a few arcade games. The one that we all seemed to play was "Tekken." Mani was going ape shit on that. Both my parents find us and tell us we need to eat lunch already. For lunch we ate at Round Table. Tang spent 1 quarter on this tiny bouncy ball machine, pressed a button, and won 10 BALLS hahah! We all take a seat and talk, take some pictures blah blah. All of a sudden, someone taps me on the shoulder and my heart stopped for a moment. I see Sofia and Gretchen standing next to me with presents. I was SPEECHLESS. I give them both a BIG hug and introduce them to my parents. I invited them to stay and eat with us. My lunch was pretty amazing to me. After lunch, we all headed to my dad's house to play games and chill. I had a lot of fun there too, playing Rock Band and Call of Duty haha. Sofia and Gretchen were begging me to watch the DVD they gave me as a gift while I was watching everyone play games. I kept saying no but I finally gave in once they said they have to go. I put it in my dad's laptop and once it loaded, I LAUGHED FUCKIN HARD. Sucks no one can see it ;D. I went with my mom to drop Sofia and Gretchen back home then went back to my dad's. A few minutes later, we all went to eat dinner together at a Korean BBQ restaurant. This was the point where all of us looked so tired. I noticed it in EVERYONE. The food was really good. I felt like I gained hella pounds from my birthday. After dinner, we dropped Tang and Mani off home. My dad dropped Gio, Zach, and I home after them. Once we got inside the house, I stopped for a moment, and saw the house was empty. My aunt cleared the house because she was supposed to move out today. Which meant Gio was going to leave the night of my birthday. Gio's family has been living with us ever since March. My mom wanted them to move in with us because she wanted to take care of my aunt. I thought it was a very good deed and I was extremely happy that they were going to live with us. After a week, everyone in my family started complaining about them living with us except me. My mom only wanted them to stay for 2 months because she thought that was long enough for my aunt to find a job and find a new home for her family. It wasn't long enough. Gio's family ended staying with us from March to my birthday. That was about 4 months plus living with them. I had a GREAT time living with them. I just wished my mom, brother, and sister could've just held on to their complaints and find the positives of them being here. So yeah, it was Gio's last night with us. He was getting most of this things in our room out and ready to be picked up tomorrow. I could tell Gio didn't want to leave. He kept stalling to call his mom for her to pick him up. Once he did call, my aunt said that she'd pick him up at midnight. I smiled and he did too. I let him on my laptop for the last time because I knew he wouldn't be able to get on the internet for a while. We shared laughs yadadada. Then it was midnight. I hear the front door open and it's my aunt. She comes into our room and tell Gio let's go already. I get on the laptop trying not to pay attention but in my mind I think, "Please don't leave yet. Sleep over atleast." He lives the room with some of his stuff. I couldn't tell if he left or not but by how quiet the house was now, he was gone. I didn't get to say bye to him at all. I broke down in tears on my laptop. I tried hiding it so that Zach wouldn't see. I went into the bathroom, locked the doors blew my nose and wiped my tears on my towel. I missed Gio too much. I felt so out of it. My best day ever, was ruined. I adjusted to them being around. It was nice coming home to someone I can have fun with. Someone who likes the same things as me. Now when I come home, it's just quiet. too damn quiet. I miss you Gio. Too damn much. Thank you God for everything you have done for me. Thank you everyone who made my birthday the very best. I love you all.

Lucky

Guess I just felt like updating this a bit. Well I'm now a sophomore. It's CRAZY how freshmen year went by so fast. I have met so many wonderful friends even if some of them drifted and some of the were "fake" or "two faced." Bboying has started to become something ESSENTIAL to my life now. It has become something I've been dedicated to and I don't think I'll quit for a LONG time. Friends this year have been a really big thing to me now. There's only a few people I trust but the one I trust the most would probably be Sofia. Sofia is an amazing person even she has made mistakes in her life. But who hasn't? I LOVE her so much I'd be sad if we even drifted apart even a little. She has stuck with me throughout freshmen year through all my ups and downs. Sure we don't hang out ALL the time during school, but it's those times when we need to run to someone which makes our friendship really unique. I love her for that and I always will. Cool thing about us is my mom knew her mom and uncle a long time ago. Funny how Sofia and I met each other wooo. Our connection must be destiny, eh? ;D. Anyways, the growth in my life is happening fast. The pain that I have to go through in my life slowly goes away. I thought this blog would help me release some stress. WELL, now it's summertime. I should be enjoying it but I've been stuck at home for the past 2 weeks. Since both my parents have split, I can't really rely on a ride to get anywhere. I'm just waiting on something AMAZING to happen. Sofia's birthday is tomorrow and I haven't spoken to her in a long time. I hope my surprise will flatter her. I'm not all that good at gifts but I can try right? Anyways, that's all I wanted to talk about in a small chunk.

I'll be updating this frequently now.
This is me,
Yuri

Idiot

You can never learn from your mistakes. You let pleasure take over yourself. You're a pushover when it comes to arguments. You let the girl of your dreams slip right through your arms. You let her curse at you and call you names. You're an idiot for doing what you did. You expect someone to feel sorry for you, but in the end, it's all you. What can you do? You change yourself. You change the way you function. Your reputation are the people that stick by you whether you're full of shit or not. You can learn from your mistakes. You can prove her wrong. You're an idiot. Now you're alone.

Webcamming

Finally started webcamming. Pretty cool. Although it was hard to find my webcam so I used my EyeToy. So if you wanna webcam with me don't be shy ;D.